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120 days into the Course of Miracles has accelerated many experiences in my life since I last wrote in this blog.

To name a few:

• After biting my nails since I can remember, I have been nail biting free for 6 months.
• A habitual tv watcher since a child, I stopped watching tv, reading the news, all things and canceled all my subscriptions!
• I eat less and lighter. My appetite has changed.

There are some deeper habits that have left me that I won’t share here but just know my orientation to life has shifted dramatically.

To talk about this subject of forgiveness is heavy given it is connected to so many flaws in the religious systems that many of us have known and encountered. I feel the need to share recent insights simply because I would like to cement certain ideas in my mind that typically float away after a day due to the constant stream of information in the world regardless if you are one, now like me, who barely is doing any type of streaming. ( Been off social medial except for Youtube for 3 years and not counting)!

Forgiveness is the key to the kingdom.

The kingdom is the Reality of the world we are apart of yet most of us can’t see/feel.

When we choose humility over self righteous anger and “rightness’ we open our hearts to this new Reality.

I have been sober for 15 years + and was in 12 step recovery actively for 10 of those years. I feel to be a walking miracle every time I reflect back and look at my former self and behavior. I didn’t change, something changed me.

People who have experienced miracles may not ever have the words to bridge the gap between the people who understand and those that don’t. But what I am experiencing to be true is when we act in forgiveness as a guiding force in relationships, admitting we don’t know much and make the decision to see people in innocence rather than in guilt/fault or limitation, doors open. We start to experience the unexplainable.

It’s definitely not my role to prove anything to anyone. I am clear what my function here is on this planet, but I share this information at a time, when it can be so easy for many to be on that self righteous path, wanting to be “right” instead of being in “right relationship.”

For those reading this, my questions to you are:

What does forgiveness mean to you?

How do you practice it?

Do you practice it or is it a nebulous concept that doesn’t make any sense?

I am curious because I am in a practice now that has been serving me well and opening my heart and mind to a place I have desired for sometime, but couldn’t put words to nor could I stay present to it for very long. The practice and the course are teaching me otherwise.

If you’re curious of the practice, want to connect, or simply have thoughts, please share!

I am patiently present to hear others’ insights!